The Unsunken Memories

Funny how it started. The flashbacks.

I was preparing ingredients to cook. Remembered the time my late-grandmother (prayers for her) taught me how to peel off garlic and onion, help her, cook. She was like, "you never knew how to peel off these?", and I was like, "like how, for what? Never occured in my mind anyway".

Then I remembered my sister kind of feel; resentment toward my grandmother, as grandmother was saying she's not helping and stuffs, and compare her to our cousins. My sister would be like, "mom..... I always help around... grandmother always say I don't, she compares me to ........... "

Back to the days when my mother nagged.. why are you like this, your cousins are great in housekeeping, helping, etc. Good girls. -- I was invited for a sleepover at their home, their mother trained them, like how ring-master trains lion. -- My mother assume "monkey do what monkey see". But monkey had no focus, and monkey didn't know what for, monkey was busy experimenting over things monkey was curious. I guess, monkey didn't see mother, monkey sees other monkeyssss.... monkey got lots of siblings, maybe, monkey sees the elder monkeys and do as the elder monkeys. -- well well... pity my mother... raising monkeys... and one by one, off the monkeys to boarding schools (almost all. Majority.).

My mother, she had a soft heart, she didn't train, she nurture with love and care in her possible ways - kgs of laundry, no dryer machine, semi-auto, catered cooked food, organizings, cleanings, accompany children, attending to needs, husband, diapers.

Married in young age, gave birth a year later, and follow suit. Never really recovered emotionally, physically... a burnt-out mother, wife. Loyal. Too kind. Spiritually and holistically, she's kind of a different case of human.

And... to blackmagic... it arrived and be-fallen on us, most visible on her.

NLP practitioners often say, like attracts like. Perhaps the unholy found its spot. Not one... heard many... she was like gate-opened.

All praise to Lord, today she has control of her own body, her own spirit. Shall there be anything else left, Al-Mighty can dispose them.

Thus, mother, I don't blame you for not training me. I turned-out, ok. I am putting efforts to be better.

Interesting List of Contents in DON'T BE SAD

I am still organizing and cleaning. I came across this book and peeked what's inside. Immediately I became very interested in its list of contents. Herewith are some I've chosen:

• Contemplate and be thankful
• The past is gone forever
• Today is all you have
• Leave the future alone until it comes
• Do not expect gratitude from anyone
• Doing good to others gives comfort to the heart
• Repel boredom with work
• Do not be a mimicker (means, not to be artificial, imitate others and erase off entity)
• Verily, with hardship, there is relief
• Convert lemon into a sweet drink
• Faith is life itself
• Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest
• Accept life as it is
• Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs
• Do not carry the weight of the globe  on your shoulders
• Do not be crushed by what is insignificant
• Be content with which Allah has given you and you will be the richest of people
• Being sad is not encouraged in our religion
• Smile
• Take a moment to reflect
• The blessing of pain
• The blessing of knowledge
• The art of happiness
• Controlling one's emotions
• Repel boredom from your life
• Cast off anxiety
• Do not be sad - Everything will occur according to pre-ordainment
• Do not be sad - Wait patiently for a happy outcome
• Do not be sad - Seek forgiveness from Allah often, for your Lord is Oft-Forgiving
• Do not be sad - Always remember Allah
• Do not be sad - Never lose hope of Allah's mercy
• Grieve not over unworthy things
• Do not be sad - Repel anxiety
• Do not be sad over fears for what may happen
• Do not be sad - Do good to others
• Do not be sad from want of ample provision
• Isolation and its positive effects
• Do not be shaken by hardships
• Do not grieve - There is another life to come
• Depression weakens the body and the soul
• Most rumors are baseless
• This life does not deserve our grief
• This is how the world is
• Strive to help others
• You are created unique
• In the last moments of life ...
• You will not die before your appointed time
• Don't be sad - Learn to deal with your reality
• Do not pay attention to the tell-tale
• The curses of the foolish are of no consequences to you
• Appreciate the beauty of the universe
• The good life
• I place my complete trust in Him
• Performing noble deeds is the way to happiness
• Your reward is Paradise
• True love
• A Lord Who wrongs not
• Write your own history
• Listen attentively to the words of Allah
• Do not pleasure to your enemy by displaying grief
• The benefits one reaps by being contented
• Take advantage of health and free time
• Hiding from evil is a temporary solution
• It is not enough to be merely intelligent: One needs true guidance as well
• A smile every morning
• Contentment even after being ruined
• Be resolute in making a decision
• Peace of mind is in having basic necessities of life
• Be prepared for the worst-case scenario
• You are doing well if you are healthy and have enough food
• Extinguish the fire of enmity before it spreads
• Don't belittle another person's efforts
• If you really cannot do something, leave it

by 'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni

Model of Existence

I don't want to be a role model,

I just want to be a proof of existence, despite the noisy voices and wishes of others and myself.

So that others may know, when they seek me, an entity, an existence.

What I've been through is proof of such life.

As I unveil to you what is unveiled to me, know that when you feel and you can relate, I prayed for you, as I was prayed unto.

Such beautiful connection. Such beautiful life.

Await for me in heaven, as I await for you to heaven. Wait short, or don't wait, reach me.

Greet me, hug me, love me, release happy tears with me, and be with me. I had missed you.

Population and Economic Growth

I'm listening to HAPPY (9PM) after a little cleaning up (^_^). So so HAPPY~~

The last post on my Harry Dent Jr. speech note-taking, made me curious. I visited his website http://harrydent.com/ and played the opening video, which in few minutes, I had to subscribe to be able to view the latter... I paused when I could not grasp during his slide on a picture of a baby.. thus, I googled the relationship between economics and baby. Which interestingly lead me to an article in wiseGEEK: What is the Relationship Between Population and Economic Growth.

So, in the article I would like to point out:

• the obvious is, without consumers, may lead to no economic growth
• couples expecting baby coming in their lives may save money until baby is born - removes money from market - save money in bank - not much is spent
• any income made, will go to families or saving account - thus, the individual is interested in earning money
• child grows - parents likely spend on goods and services for child's development
• later in life, the child will become tax-payer, consumer, investment

Another article, Let's Talk About Sex: Why More Babies Means More Economic Growth by Jerry Bowyer, which a simpleton like me couldn't grasp much, what I can relate is toward the end of the article, "By the time all of those nations of dual-earners-one-kid realize that they're about to become nations of dual-pensioners-one-earner, it's already too late."

And some interesting comments:

Try not to cry...

Oh.. the happy song ended 30mins ago..
And I was so touched by these information.

Economics...

A Letter for Altucher?

I was dreaming in my sleep.

My good friend is married to the Yang Di Pertuan Agong, head of state of Malaysia (King). They never really had met, but the King had chosen to marry her, and he didn't acknowledge that she is still married to her husband, and loves him dearly. She intended to tell him in their very first met up in Australia, where she brought along few of her close friends for support. She has rivals whom are jealous of her. The rivals were being indecent, thus was sent back to Malaysia. I had to make sure the rivals are all on the plane.

Then suddenly I was with my big family, we're on a cruise, and captured by a pirate ship. When we managed to escape, all of us were in water, but the water was not deep. Suddenly I was holding a wet letter, meant for Altucher, a yellow colored envelope. Confused, who's Altucher? Why am I sending this letter to this person?

And I was awake by the sound of a bird chirping, on my opened window...

And when I was about to blog, I suddenly remembered... Altucher is James Altucher (^-^)

By the way...

Weird dream...

Trend in Economy and Where to Get Our Money

I'm listening and taking notes, the CD is programmed so that I can't rewind or forward, thus, here are some points I am managing to write;

Harry Dent Jr. in 2013 shared how to increase income and take advantage of the trend:

-- Can't cure debt bubble by adding another debt

-- Understand the new technology

-- Entrepreneur welcome change

-- Economic changing, businesses start to fail

How to increase income?

economy have booms and bust

-- people get married, have kids, advancing in career, buying house

-- age 46 spend the most in lifetime

-- earning and spending at age 20

-- 26 gets married, forms households - retail stores shopping centers

-- 28 gets children -- everything about kids

-- 31 buy 1st home

-- 33 spend money on child care

-- 37 - 42 kids older, they want more space, people buy biggest house, jr high school

-- 46 spend the most money

-- 50 on automobiles

-- 54 travel the most, fix up kitchen

-- 58 life insurance

-- 68 health insurance -- continue to grow for decades

people learn, experience, innovate, adopt new trends, products and services

people generate their own businesses

retirement benefits becoming off

new businesses emerge

the aging people wants to be young, well, live longer life

create your own business, create multiple stream of income

-- internet-based,

-- franchise,

-- network marketing (easiest way to start business, own business, product proven)

not in denial of change, act on it.

network marketing

-- low start up cost

-- real business

-- product proven - demonstrate the result

-- how to apply to needs, be the consultant

-- go for people who are serious

-- support those people - train those people

-- invest in yourself and help people learn how they can invest in themselves

have 10 years plan or longer, strategies when the world goes upside-down

economics go down, some have their business boom

entrepreneurs go to work

forget about retirement, no one retire, if they can't work, most probably their families are taking care of their healthcare

keep a job if you have a good job, have multiple of income, build every way of cash and income, make money during this downturn.. after 2023 you can look back and see..

take your wealth, give your children enough to start their own business, fund an organisation

no regrets on deathbed

Mama's so Proud of You: What your stool indicates (o_o) about your HEALTH

Sukamon in Digimon

That's what came in my mind...

And I told myself not to share this..

It's unacceptable to some.

But I meant well.

I meant to share about health.


Remember when you were a baby, or a toddler.. Yo MAMMA was SO proud of you on your first successful potty-training.

Erikson's Stages of Development

Well, you see here darling.. When you do well, you'd feel a sense of autonomy, you are able to be in control of self. Else, you'd feel ashamed, and have self-doubt. This is psychology.


I was so proud of myself today.

Me Gusta

I managed to let go a healthy sum (so I thought). It's green with some mucus.. the most beautiful I've seen in my life. Ready to learn about stool? So what does mine indicates?

Based on my readings and what I've been practicing these few days, green stool indicates that food had passed through my intestines rapidly before it could change to brown. This is because I've been taking soluble and insoluble fiber to treat my irritable bowel syndrome, or sort of acute digestive problem which had contributed to malabsorption of nutrients, harmful toxins, contaminated blood, acne, skin problems, and emotional behavior disorders. (My God! to even write, read and reread what I wrote just now made me feel uneasy... what have I gone through?). In which the Doctor suspected that my condition might lead to stomach bleeding and tumor growth. Thank goodness that I knew this than never. Thus I have some ideas on how to treat myself. Also, remember what I posted in my previous post, I mixed my fiber drink with chlorophyll too. The fiber powder also have spirulina, alfafa, and aloevera. My, my... the botanical juice has aloevera.. and I added some more aloevera in the mix. Just the right combination, for my case. Just....right.

So what could other color indicates? What are they? Which color is ideal?

Read this article: Healthy and Unhealthy Stool: what does your poop say about your health?

Here's a diagram I found:

Easy and understandable diagram

Test yourself

Advice

As I was doing my research on this, I noticed that there are a lot of articles on diagnosing baby poops. Yep.

To park!
http://altmedicine.about.com/od/gettingdiagnosed/a/stools.htm

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Hot & Spicy: Red Condiment & Black Soy Sauce (@,@)% and ACIDIC Body

My mother asked me for a small favor, to help with our lunch preparation. She also asked me to make Kelantanese Sambal (Condiment). Me being off the kitchen for long, had forgotten how to make it according to the family's taste standard, thus she helped me in preparing the ingredients.

It was easy. We used:

• 3 long red chillies, 
• 5 cherry tomatoes, 
• 3 small spicy green chilies (cili padi), 
• 1 spoon of salt, 3 spoons of sugar, 
• and 1/4 lemon. 

Cut what needs cutting,
put the cherry tomatoes first, then the chilies.
Grind all, for a while.
Add in salt and sugar.
Grind again.
Let there be pieces (means, don't grind until too "mushy").
Pour in a bowl.
Squeeze the lemon juice.
Mix well.

Well... hm... mine is considered "mushy" here. Try not to grind that long.
We usually use the normal tomato, about 1/2. But we had cherry tomatoes in stock.. thus.. tadaaa!!!

And so the remaining lemon, its skin. I suddenly had the idea, memory flashbacks, that says lemon is good for our skin. My acne are getting less and smaller since I incidentally mixed aloe vera into my fiber drink, along with chlorophyll and botanical beverage, yesterday noon. Writing about that mixed drink, that morning, I had stomach discomfort. I did defecate, but still have that discomfort. Since there weren't food I feel that I can take, I took the mixed drink instead, and immediately I defecate again, more of liquid and gas. Then, my body felt quite nice and refreshing. It's been long (long, like 2 months ago, since the first cupping with the Doctor) that I haven't had a refreshing feeling. And my face skin looks, more clear, felt more moist. And the back of my ears (dry, scaly, painful) felt more moist. I was amazed by this discovery... Aloe vera. It's like my kind of new spirit, new symbol.

Back to today, and so, I squeezed the juice and wiped my skin with the lemon skin. I started with my face, perhaps the juice gets near to my left ear, and I felt pain and unease.. so I followed my intuition by wiping the juice to my ears... MY GOD!! It was sharp pain. I groaned in pain.. MY GOD!!

While I was still groaning, mother asked me to make the hot and spicy soy sauce (kicap).

Well, you could have guessed what's in it.. very easy indeed.

1 red onion, small size, dice
8 small spicy green chilies, dice
soy sauce (sweet), just the same height as the ingredient, because onion will produce its water later

And as I was preparing this, I was thinking to myself... You know.. there are people I know who would eat the small spicy green chili by itself, with rice and side dish, or bread, or roti canai (looks like paratha). I guess, eating chilies like that boost one's ego. The more chili one can eat, the more power the person is (and also because of the taste and feeling one gets used to). We were like that. I was like that. After the aloe vera incident, it made me realized how highly acidic my body was, how inflamed my organs, my stomach, my skin... Years I had tried and tried to lower the intake of chilies and to heal myself, my indescribable conditions. My condition was and is driving me nuts. Thus, that is why I put efforts to eat well. I intend to live well. I intend to survive and tell. This is why I share with you.

I wish for all of us to be well.

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Consumption Awareness - Minimize Health-Risks From What You Eat

I couldn't rest until I find and share this:

1. Stay away from soft drinks
2. Ban antibiotics in animal feeds
3. Watch sugar intake
4. Watch caffeinated energy drinks intake
5. Watch red meat intake
6. Watch trans-fat intake: chocolate & wafers, shortening & margarine, ice-cream, biscuits & cookies, cakes, breakfast cereals, burgers, breads & buns, french fries, pastries, pies & puffs, fried chicken, pizza
7. Watch instant noodles intake, and high sodium intake
8. Ban polystyrene use
9. Stay away from fast-food restaurants

My Favorite Diet

Also, as a result of my mother's brain-washing since I was a teenager, I'm kind of a supplements-freak. She'd buy me stocks of "good" supplements, and cried-out when she found out that I didn't consume them.

She used to give me evening primrose, until a time when I did a check-up with a gynecologist about my intolerance to very high menstrual pain. The gynecologist advised me to stop evening primrose consumption, right-away.

I had been wondering...

Comparing myself to others, my peers, I took supplements for years, and yet, I seemed to have indescribable sickness. Others couldn't see that I'm experiencing discomfort, but I was suffering on my own. For my abnormalities, I checked with allopathy, but practitioners couldn't really detect my problems. Until I met with a Doctor, whom is practicing cupping therapy. Which I intend to write in a full post.

Perhaps, what happened was, the supplements became toxins in my body-systems.

Here's a write-up from ConsumerLab.com on foods, supplements, and natural & synthetic vitamin:

And an answer to "Why is a whole food diet better for my health than nutrient supplements?"





To park!!
http://www.consumer.org.my
http://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-living/nutrition-and-healthy-eating/in-depth/supplements/art-20044894
https://www.consumerlab.com/rdas/
http://www.undergroundhealth.com/the-10-worst-toxins-hidden-in-vitamins-supplements-and-health-foods/

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Ar-Rahnu, T.B., or, both (*.*)?? Gaining money from GOLD

In my mind, I'm doing my thesis writing (all the time, when I'm awake) \(^.^)/, and it is almost finished. In reality, it is not yet written (*.*)!!! m(-_-)m I have about 12 hours to do my draft on all chapters.

I'm doing my dry-cleaning. Thus, I tell myself that I have about 2 hours, on and off to share here.

What I'm excited to share is; today, after I woke up, God had sent a whatsapp group to invite me for a pawn-broking discussion.

Er.. I'll translate when I have time.

So, as my nature is to do research, think thoroughly, do calculations and come up with logic reasoning, I have summed up on whether to do Ar-Rahnu (pawn broking), T.B. (Tok Belagak), or both.

Ok, now, I need you to imagine.

I have 100g, 916 gold (22k).

I'm not going to explain much on Ar-Rahnu multiply in this post. Perhaps another time.

This is the timetable:

I want to save my 100g 22k, but I want to manipulate and gain money. So I do pawn-broking with KPMNJ Ar-Rahnu service. When I first came here, the pawn shop only allow me to do 65% maximum lending, with 0.7% safe deposit charge per month. (By the way, I registered as a KPMNJ member long time ago)
So, I pair with T.B., I'm eligible to buy 51g 24k

If I choose to redeem my pawn on:

• 2nd month, I get +MYR493.56 and my 100g 916
• 3rd month, I get +MYR999.51 and my 100g 916
• 4th month, I get +MYR1505.52 and my 100g 916

Now that I have +MYR1505.52. I want to sell my 100g 916... hmm... what is the price will be like for next 5 months? Can you read the technical analysis for gold price? Oh.. Please tell me~~~

Ok, since I'm not that good in technical analysis. Not yet. Assuming the price is the same. My 100g 22k may get up to MYR12200 from honest buyer. Plus that money I gained from Ar-Rahnu, +MYR1505.52.

What will it be like, with T.B. alone?
Refresh back, I have 100g 22k. So I sell all to T.B.. Referring back to the board, I will get MYR12200, 0g.
So, I buy T.B. 999.9 for 68g x MYR180. I pay T.B. MYR12240

I want to gain money:

• 2nd month, I sell all back to T.B.. T.B. give me MYR13192. I gained +MYR952
• I want to buy back T.B. 68g x MYR180
• 3rd month, I sell all back to T.B.. T.B. give me MYR13056. I gained +MYR816
• I want to buy back T.B. 68g x MYR180
• 4th month, I sell all back to T.B.. T.B. give me MYR13056. I gained +MYR816
• I want to buy back T.B. 68g x MYR180
• and so on, and so fourth

I gained +MYR2584 and 68g 999.9. Lets say, I want to exit, and sell all my gold. I get MYR13506, plus that money I gained with less effort, +MYR2584.

Ok, are we friends now?

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Abnormalities That Might be Normal

Abnormal is said to be as something out of norm. - Logic.

But these have came to be normal, yes?

1. Demons that intrude hollistic aspects of human beings
2. House poltergeist
3. Banshee visits
4. Unexplainable health conditions
5. Scary sleep paralysis
6. Emotional behavior disorders
7. Deviant beliefs and cognitions

Before modernization, these were real. During modernization, these things were denied, scientificized, and structured to be able to fund organizations. Post-modernization, more people are aware of the importance of health and spirituality, educated on health and spirituality, and becoming self-scientists. Cures are marketed everywhere from many schools of taughts and becoming lucrative.

To me, these are becoming common norms. How about you?

Is this the trend?
Lets quote sources..

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Project: Duplicate Wealth Success and Achieving Holistic Wellness

Success duplicates success

Study the keys, methods, and recipes.

To study:

N21, STG, GSR, DEPB, JSD.


N21:
Starter kit
Books and CDs
Group Coaching
Seminars
Daily products for self, minimum MYR 800/month

• Vitamins, C & E
• Daily Supplements
• Protein

Home Appliances

• Kitchen Electronics
• Detergents

STG:
Starter kit
Mini Seminar
Major Seminar
Online Coaching
Monthly products for self, minimum MYR 200/month

• Bar Soap
• Shampoo
• Toothpaste
• Phytohormone

Health Bonus

• Sleeping Bag
• Body Shaper

GSR
Choices. It's a shop.


DEPB
Pairing for self, and for others.


JSD
Health for self, ladies, and husbands.



New in Malaysia market:


NuVerus
Health juices
From fruits, vegetables, and herbs.



The concept here is to live a Healthy lifestyle and achieve financial freedom.

These business owners have created the possibles. Duplicating a system of success. Enabling us to be members, buy at member's price, have performance bonuses, experience a better lifestyle (as health is improved), introduce the goods to others, and share our piece of lives to the people of the world.



I would like to share with you of what is mine... would you stay, and read on.

Are we friends?

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Background Check On DesaUrbon! \(*.*\)

Who am I?

I just happened to have lost all of that writing.. Due to DNS failure. I am not a strong-skilled writer. Supposed writing the same thing twice would make my writing better? I am not sure. I doubt that. I wrote my heart out in the first, lets see how the second-time write-up gives.

## Starts here ##

Who am I?

My cousin found out that we're of a Daeng's lineage, Daeng Parani, which means that I am part a Buginese. That Buginese married a Javanese. Their offspring married a Kelantanese Malay (let me refer as KM).

If I remember this right, KM is an offspring of Arab-Siamese and Kelantanese Malay, but I can't confirm it since KM does not really know and both KM's parents are Allahyarham and Allahyarhamah.

I was close to Allahyarhamah. At least, I felt close to her. I feel like I have an unfinished business with her that I imagined is finished, or I wish is finished. During her last few weeks, she requested me to accompany her to sleep. I would sleep on the floor since my aunt was sleeping with her on the bed. I would sneak to SMS my former boyfriend since calling-late-night-to-sleep would be a rude disturbance and impolite tooooo (*.*)***. During Fajr, she would pray beside me, on whatever space there was, because I was still sleeping on the floor (I'm a heavy sleeper). Then, she would read the Quran. Came the time for me to go back to University, as I was leaving, I shook her hands and kissed her hand and cheeks, she asked me when can we meet again, she was afraid that we would not be able to meet again. I shushed her and said to her that it was nonsense, of course we'll meet again.

But we didn't... That day, it didn't register in my mind that it was almost time for her to go, forever...

My feelings relate to this

Attached herewith is the lyrics

Said goodbye, turned around

And you were gone, gone, gone

Faded into the setting sun,

Slipped away

But I won’t cry

Cause I know I’ll never be lonely

For you are the stars to me,

You are the light I follow 

[Chorus:]

I’ll See you again, oh

This is not where it ends

I will carry you with me, oh

Till I see you again 

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night

Calling me back in time

Back to you

In a place far away

Where the water meets the sky

The thought of it makes me smile

You are my tomorrow 

[Chorus:] 

I’ll See you again, oh

This is not where it ends

I will carry you with me, oh

Till I see you again 

[Bridge:]

Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking

But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know

I’ll see you again, oh

This is not where it ends

I will carry you with me, yeah yeah 

[Outro:]

I’ll See you again, oh

This is not where it ends

I will carry you with me, oh

Till I see you again

Till I see you again,

Till I see you again,

Said goodbye turned around

And you were gone, gone, gone.

When she keeps coming in my conscious, that means she's in my subconscious and unconscious, which also means that she has a powerful impact on me. (In Freud's term, I had wronged the meaning of conscious, but, am right in its meaning)

*Our gift for you, to all Allahyarham, Allahyarhamah, and the living

AL FATIHAH

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Turned out that the second write-up is better than the first, also because of new ideas and improvements.


Tell me, what you know about your lineage.


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