The Unsunken Memories

Funny how it started. The flashbacks.

I was preparing ingredients to cook. Remembered the time my late-grandmother (prayers for her) taught me how to peel off garlic and onion, help her, cook. She was like, "you never knew how to peel off these?", and I was like, "like how, for what? Never occured in my mind anyway".

Then I remembered my sister kind of feel; resentment toward my grandmother, as grandmother was saying she's not helping and stuffs, and compare her to our cousins. My sister would be like, "mom..... I always help around... grandmother always say I don't, she compares me to ........... "

Back to the days when my mother nagged.. why are you like this, your cousins are great in housekeeping, helping, etc. Good girls. -- I was invited for a sleepover at their home, their mother trained them, like how ring-master trains lion. -- My mother assume "monkey do what monkey see". But monkey had no focus, and monkey didn't know what for, monkey was busy experimenting over things monkey was curious. I guess, monkey didn't see mother, monkey sees other monkeyssss.... monkey got lots of siblings, maybe, monkey sees the elder monkeys and do as the elder monkeys. -- well well... pity my mother... raising monkeys... and one by one, off the monkeys to boarding schools (almost all. Majority.).

My mother, she had a soft heart, she didn't train, she nurture with love and care in her possible ways - kgs of laundry, no dryer machine, semi-auto, catered cooked food, organizings, cleanings, accompany children, attending to needs, husband, diapers.

Married in young age, gave birth a year later, and follow suit. Never really recovered emotionally, physically... a burnt-out mother, wife. Loyal. Too kind. Spiritually and holistically, she's kind of a different case of human.

And... to blackmagic... it arrived and be-fallen on us, most visible on her.

NLP practitioners often say, like attracts like. Perhaps the unholy found its spot. Not one... heard many... she was like gate-opened.

All praise to Lord, today she has control of her own body, her own spirit. Shall there be anything else left, Al-Mighty can dispose them.

Thus, mother, I don't blame you for not training me. I turned-out, ok. I am putting efforts to be better.

Interesting List of Contents in DON'T BE SAD

I am still organizing and cleaning. I came across this book and peeked what's inside. Immediately I became very interested in its list of contents. Herewith are some I've chosen:

• Contemplate and be thankful
• The past is gone forever
• Today is all you have
• Leave the future alone until it comes
• Do not expect gratitude from anyone
• Doing good to others gives comfort to the heart
• Repel boredom with work
• Do not be a mimicker (means, not to be artificial, imitate others and erase off entity)
• Verily, with hardship, there is relief
• Convert lemon into a sweet drink
• Faith is life itself
• Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest
• Accept life as it is
• Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs
• Do not carry the weight of the globe  on your shoulders
• Do not be crushed by what is insignificant
• Be content with which Allah has given you and you will be the richest of people
• Being sad is not encouraged in our religion
• Smile
• Take a moment to reflect
• The blessing of pain
• The blessing of knowledge
• The art of happiness
• Controlling one's emotions
• Repel boredom from your life
• Cast off anxiety
• Do not be sad - Everything will occur according to pre-ordainment
• Do not be sad - Wait patiently for a happy outcome
• Do not be sad - Seek forgiveness from Allah often, for your Lord is Oft-Forgiving
• Do not be sad - Always remember Allah
• Do not be sad - Never lose hope of Allah's mercy
• Grieve not over unworthy things
• Do not be sad - Repel anxiety
• Do not be sad over fears for what may happen
• Do not be sad - Do good to others
• Do not be sad from want of ample provision
• Isolation and its positive effects
• Do not be shaken by hardships
• Do not grieve - There is another life to come
• Depression weakens the body and the soul
• Most rumors are baseless
• This life does not deserve our grief
• This is how the world is
• Strive to help others
• You are created unique
• In the last moments of life ...
• You will not die before your appointed time
• Don't be sad - Learn to deal with your reality
• Do not pay attention to the tell-tale
• The curses of the foolish are of no consequences to you
• Appreciate the beauty of the universe
• The good life
• I place my complete trust in Him
• Performing noble deeds is the way to happiness
• Your reward is Paradise
• True love
• A Lord Who wrongs not
• Write your own history
• Listen attentively to the words of Allah
• Do not pleasure to your enemy by displaying grief
• The benefits one reaps by being contented
• Take advantage of health and free time
• Hiding from evil is a temporary solution
• It is not enough to be merely intelligent: One needs true guidance as well
• A smile every morning
• Contentment even after being ruined
• Be resolute in making a decision
• Peace of mind is in having basic necessities of life
• Be prepared for the worst-case scenario
• You are doing well if you are healthy and have enough food
• Extinguish the fire of enmity before it spreads
• Don't belittle another person's efforts
• If you really cannot do something, leave it

by 'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni

Model of Existence

I don't want to be a role model,

I just want to be a proof of existence, despite the noisy voices and wishes of others and myself.

So that others may know, when they seek me, an entity, an existence.

What I've been through is proof of such life.

As I unveil to you what is unveiled to me, know that when you feel and you can relate, I prayed for you, as I was prayed unto.

Such beautiful connection. Such beautiful life.

Await for me in heaven, as I await for you to heaven. Wait short, or don't wait, reach me.

Greet me, hug me, love me, release happy tears with me, and be with me. I had missed you.

Abnormalities That Might be Normal

Abnormal is said to be as something out of norm. - Logic.

But these have came to be normal, yes?

1. Demons that intrude hollistic aspects of human beings
2. House poltergeist
3. Banshee visits
4. Unexplainable health conditions
5. Scary sleep paralysis
6. Emotional behavior disorders
7. Deviant beliefs and cognitions

Before modernization, these were real. During modernization, these things were denied, scientificized, and structured to be able to fund organizations. Post-modernization, more people are aware of the importance of health and spirituality, educated on health and spirituality, and becoming self-scientists. Cures are marketed everywhere from many schools of taughts and becoming lucrative.

To me, these are becoming common norms. How about you?

Is this the trend?
Lets quote sources..

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